Feeling calm

I feel calm. Well I actually feel like there are a million things to do, stress is my middle name, and work is beating me down....BUT I feel calm because I have a plan. Well I have a plan for the next few weeks.
See Chad and I have been struggling with getting pregnant for over a year. I always felt like I would be a fertile turtle and have no problems...I guess God felt that we needed a challenge or to work on some things before it happens. I have had the blood work, we did chad's test (boy he loved that one..not!), and now we are to the point of more invasive testing. I had been having alot of anxiety waiting to hear back with all the lab results and tried not to be the annoying patient who calls the Dr's office 15 times. Well she called yesterday...Good news that everything is ok in his department, now just work for me.
Does it get me closer to getting pregnant? Yes and no. I feel so much better knowing what steps are next. The best thing was when I said to the Dr. "All I want to do is have a child." and she said "Becky, I know. And we are going to get you there!" I just felt like I have support and that I am not as alone as I thought. I also feel like she really cares about helping me. I know she sees aleast 1 woman a day who has this problem but she made me feel like I was really important.

So here we go with the next steps....

(p.s. thanks to anyone who does read my blog and doesnt think i am crazy, desperate, or inappropriate. This might not be what others write about but oh well. This is where I am at right now.)

MIA

I know that I have been MIA for a bit now...trying to manage all things in life. Work is CRAZY! That's what happens when the weather in PA turns from winter to summer in a week, with maybe 2 or 3 spring days thrown in. I have also been trying to get out and take more pictures. I have found that I am challenged with having an "older" film camera that I have to wait to get the film on CD's, bring them home, and see if what i shot has turned out. Working on saving for a digital. Any suggestions as to what i should buy? I know there are a million and one choices out there but I have narrowed it down I think to a Canon Rebel T3i or Nikon D90. If anyone can throw some advice my way it would be GREAT! Thanks! P.S. hope you are having a great day!

                                                           The New Addition - The 966

My husband bought this tractor about 2 weeks ago. What a proud day for him! He was like a kid when he brought it home, calling me to come to the farm and take a look at it.  When I was able to get over there a few days later, what i didnt tell him was that i had a nice conversation with the 966. I made sure I mentioned that I wasn't out to get her and she shouldn't be out to get me! Chad tells me that this is the tractor I get to drive and it's very easy! What's he trying to say?!?! I am excited for my husband that he has a new toy, and as long as there is a seat for me I am happy.

Pictures

I developed my photos the other day. BAD! They all look over exposed, grainy, and green. You can't even tell if the picture looked good or not because of the developing. :( I bought new film and am going to try again. Things are only going to get prettier with spring coming.

Adventure day!!

Today was adventure day. It started out so pretty and warm, the sun was shining and I was in a great mood! I was going to take chad out and show him what I have am beginning to love again. We started great, having a good time, THEN when we decided to go find a place to stop and take pictures...dun dun dun. :( Fight. Frustration. Long story short...I have decided to probably do adventure day on my own from now on. I just dont think he gets it. It's not very soal soothing to him I guess. OH well. I did get some great pictures though.

Hobbies

So I picked up my camera and started taking pictures the other day. It is slowly getting to be spring and I want to be outside so bad. I have been trying to find somethings that are interesting to take pictures of, but not tresspass either! I went also to look at buying a new digital camera today...pretty pricy! I am going to have to save up for that.

Blogging?

Still trying to figure this blogging thing out. Not sure how to get even simple things like pictures to show up. Would like to put a music player on here too.....if anyone's out there and has suggestions, HELP!