I feel calm. Well I actually feel like there are a million things to do, stress is my middle name, and work is beating me down....BUT I feel calm because I have a plan. Well I have a plan for the next few weeks.
See Chad and I have been struggling with getting pregnant for over a year. I always felt like I would be a fertile turtle and have no problems...I guess God felt that we needed a challenge or to work on some things before it happens. I have had the blood work, we did chad's test (boy he loved that one..not!), and now we are to the point of more invasive testing. I had been having alot of anxiety waiting to hear back with all the lab results and tried not to be the annoying patient who calls the Dr's office 15 times. Well she called yesterday...Good news that everything is ok in his department, now just work for me.
Does it get me closer to getting pregnant? Yes and no. I feel so much better knowing what steps are next. The best thing was when I said to the Dr. "All I want to do is have a child." and she said "Becky, I know. And we are going to get you there!" I just felt like I have support and that I am not as alone as I thought. I also feel like she really cares about helping me. I know she sees aleast 1 woman a day who has this problem but she made me feel like I was really important.
So here we go with the next steps....
(p.s. thanks to anyone who does read my blog and doesnt think i am crazy, desperate, or inappropriate. This might not be what others write about but oh well. This is where I am at right now.)